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Mar. 10th, 2004 11:18 pmI think I'm experiencing my usual end-of-term burnout. Which, considering I'm taking only two courses and one of them is a *dance* class, for heaven's sake, is ridiculous. That's nowhere near enough mental exhaustion to explain why I wake up still tired and spend most of my day with a mild background headache.
The costume I was working on (the one which was taking pleasure in defying and taunting me) has been put aside because I can't deal right now with trying to make it behave. Instead, this evening at work I spent time hand-sewing the mockup for the dress I plan to wear to a high school friend's wedding next month. It was soothing work. I got five darts done, and the entire bodice sewn together. I need to find if I have a 14" zipper or not....
I am beginning to wonder how good of a costumer I really am. I am damn good with a needle and thread--possibly better than all of my closest cosplay friends save one--but I really don't have a constructive instinct for anything that doesn't involve fabric. I also can't design original costumes to save my life. Unfortunately I suspect these aren't things I can easily change about myself. Sometimes I feel like I'm on the verge of being left behind and surpassed in the cosplay community, and let's face it, part of why I do this is for the ego trip of it all and the possibility of winning some self-affirmation. Maybe I should slide all the way over into the SCA and that side business I'm pondering with seamstressing? Saa.
Retail therapy thus far has involved discovering the vintage patterns section on eBay, discovering also that there are listings for the paper dolls my sister and I played with as children, and winning the bridesmaids' dress pattern for my best friend's wedding.
The costume I was working on (the one which was taking pleasure in defying and taunting me) has been put aside because I can't deal right now with trying to make it behave. Instead, this evening at work I spent time hand-sewing the mockup for the dress I plan to wear to a high school friend's wedding next month. It was soothing work. I got five darts done, and the entire bodice sewn together. I need to find if I have a 14" zipper or not....
I am beginning to wonder how good of a costumer I really am. I am damn good with a needle and thread--possibly better than all of my closest cosplay friends save one--but I really don't have a constructive instinct for anything that doesn't involve fabric. I also can't design original costumes to save my life. Unfortunately I suspect these aren't things I can easily change about myself. Sometimes I feel like I'm on the verge of being left behind and surpassed in the cosplay community, and let's face it, part of why I do this is for the ego trip of it all and the possibility of winning some self-affirmation. Maybe I should slide all the way over into the SCA and that side business I'm pondering with seamstressing? Saa.
Retail therapy thus far has involved discovering the vintage patterns section on eBay, discovering also that there are listings for the paper dolls my sister and I played with as children, and winning the bridesmaids' dress pattern for my best friend's wedding.
